Over the past 7 years of learning how to live with all that is ‘MS’ and navigating through life as the ‘new’ me, I have come to the conclusion that the ‘Multiple’ in Multiple Sclerosis means MUCH more than the obvious ‘Multiple Scars’ or ‘Multiple Lesions’…
It’s learning how to deal with the multiple curve-balls thrown your way and being forced to see life in multiple different ways.
It’s feeling multiple emotions on multiple days and managing them despite sometimes feeling a total loss of control.
It’s feeling multiple symptoms, at multiple severities and trying a multiple of therapies in the hopes of easing them.
It’s asking and answering multiple questions asked in multiple different ways on multiple different days.
It’s dreading the multiple times you will have to get up to go to the bathroom, kitchen, answer the door, or any other task that drains your energy in ways which at some point seemed incomprehensible.
It’s the multiple times you will lose your balance, appear drunk while walking, lose your ability to walk at all, trip over absolutely nothing, or take a FULL out ROCK hard fall…and THEN the MULTIPLE times you will get back up and shake it all off.
It’s the multiple times you will say ‘It’s Neurological, NOT muscular’, and the multiple times you will ask yourself when that powerful brain of yours will wake back up.
It’s the multiple moments you will choose to embrace the cards you’ve been dealt, and then the multiple more moments you will want to scream at the top of your lungs!
It’s the multiple, multiple, MULTIPLE times you will try to do something you know you can’t do, JUST to see if anything has changed.
It’s the debilitating fatigue that overwhelms your body JUST from doing one of the MULTIPLE tasks, which at one point seemed SO second nature.
It’s the multiple degrees of pain you feel and the multiple words used to try to describe it, but that just don’t do it justice.
It’s the multiple times you feel let down when a treatment failed to relieve your symptoms, and then the multiple new ones you immediately start researching.
It’s trying to picture the multiple little aliens that have taken a hold of your body, and envisioning all the multiple ways of defeating them.
It’s ALL of the multiple challenges you fight on a daily basis due to an incurable chronic beast that is OFTEN too afraid to show its face.
It’s taking pride in recognizing the multiple battles you’ve already won, yet continuously preparing yourself for the NEVER ending WAR.
It’s finding a balance between all your multiple meltdowns, and trying to remain that strong, positive and courageous person deep within.
It’s being thankful for the multiple people who love, support and encourage you through your ever winding journey, and not being able to picture going through it without them.
It’s recognizing the multiple layers of resilience you have already built, and anticipating the Multiple new ones yet to develop.
BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY…
It’s NEVER letting the multiple layers of adversity outweigh the MULTIPLE triumphs and successes you’ve endured.
Because one day, I truly believe that all of these ‘multiple’ things will come to ONE happy ending, and we will ALL be able to say:
“I USED to have Multiple Sclerosis…but that was MULTIPLE years ago!”
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